My wife told me something my son did in his Sunday school class last week. They were asking the kids if they wanted to pray for someone. My son said he wanted to pray for his Daddy. He prayed that Jesus would come into my heart and make me all better.
At first this made me a little sad and remorseful. I am not sure what he thinks about me. If he is afraid that I am going to hell, or that I am going to turn into a bad person, I think I should talk to him about it. I am not sure what to say.
I want to tell him he does not have to worry. There is no heaven or hell. But that would conflict with what my wife wants him to believe.
I do not want to lose my marriage. I love my wife and kids. I cannot make myself believe. I also cannot pretend to believe.